Sunday, February 05, 2023

More inkblots

 RORSCHACH’S MONTHS AT the Kryukovo in early 1914 came at a watershed moment in Russian art, one that redefined the power of viewing images. Russian Futurism was in full force, and Rorschach witnessed firsthand. Probably in 1915, he drafted an essay called “The Psychology of Futurism,” whose journalistic opening set the scene nicely: “Futurism, as it presents itself today to an astonished world, appears at first to be a colorful jumble of incomprehensible images and sculptures, of high-sounding manifestos and inarticulate sounds, of noisy art and artistic noise, of a will to power and a will to illogicality. Only one common theme is distinct: An unbounded self-confidence and a perhaps even more boundless condemnation of everything that came before, a battle-cry against all of the concepts that until today have shaped the course of culture, art, and daily life.” 


Futurism was a modernist pressure cooker in which everything seemed to be shattering or dissolving at once. An explosion of energy in literature, painting, theater, and music, its Russian version contained a swarm of submovements, cliques, and branding strategies, inchiding Cubo-Futurism, Ego-Futurism, Everythingism, Centrifuge, and the excellently named Mezzanine of Poetry. These were discussed in the press almost daily while Rorschach was in Russia, and in January and February 1914 the leading Italian Futurist, F. T. Marinetti, gave well publicized and well-attended lectures in Moscow. The movement took to the streets with parades in which artists would “walk with painted faces among the crowds, reciting futurist poetry.” When a little girl gave one parading poet an orange, he began to eat it. “He’s eating, he’s eating,” the astonished crowd whispered, as if the Futurists were Martians; a nationwide tour soon followed. 


The Futurists’ explorations resonated with many of Rorschach’s interests. The composer and painter Mikhail Matyushin, a follower of Ernst Haeckel, studied chance forms of driftwood, wrote theories of color, and tried to expand human visual capacity, in part with exercises meant to regenerate lost optical nerves in the back of the head and the soles of the feet. Nikolai Kulbin, whom Rorschach heard lecture, was an artist and medical doctor who published books and scientific articles on sensory perception and psychological testing. He had this psychological slogan as his motto: “The self does not know anything except its own feelings, and while projecting these feelings it creates its own world.” Poet Aleksei Kruchenykh championed “seeing things on both sides” and “subjective objectivity”: “Let a book be small, but ... everything the writer’s own, to the last ink blot.” Futurists published synesthetic works such as Intuztive Colors and tables of correspondences between colors and musical notes; manifestos on how neologisms and mistakes “bring about movement and the new perception of the word”; a poem where the poet is in a movie theater and, making a special effort, begins to see the image upside down. These and other key figures are mentioned or quoted in Rorschach’s Futurism essay. 


He acknowledged that Futurism seemed crazy and illogical but affirmed that “the time has now passed when any movement, any ac~ tion, can be dismissed as ‘crazy.’ . .. There is no such thing as absolute honsense. Even in the darkest and most elaborate delusions of our de~ mentia praecox patients, there exists a hidden meaning.” He drew the parallel between Futurism and schizophrenia in Zurich School terms, justifying the wider applicability of psychoanalytic theory: “Connections unimaginable until now have been forged with the elaboration of the depth psychology that Freud has pioneered. . . . Not only neurotic symptoms and delusional systems and dreams but also myths, fairy tales, poems, musical works, paintings—all have proved to be accessible to psychoanalytical research.” As a result, “Even if we decide to describe Futurism as madness and nonsense, we still have the obligation to find sense in that nonsense.” 


Rorschach took Futurism seriously and found sense in it specific enough to criticize. In the most original analysis in his Futurism essay he argued that the Futurists misunderstood how images generate q feeling of movement. He pointed out that usually only cartoonists like his old favorite Wilhelm Busch, try to present motion by showing an object in multiple states at once, for instance by giving a vig. orous pianist numerous arms and hands. Michelangelo’s sculptures o, paintings, in contrast, are themselves dynamic—they make you feel the movement. The Futurists, with their dozen-legged dogs, made the mistake of trying an approach like Busch’s, but Rorschach was unusually firm: for an artist aspiring to more than cartoons, “there is no other way to handle motion” than Michelangelo’s way; “The only serious way to represent motion in an object is by influencing the kinesthetic sense of the beholder.” The Futurist strategy is “impossible” because it misunderstands the relationship between empathy—Vischer’s term hineinftiblen—and vision: “There is no need to consult the philosophers and psychologists, but simply the physiologists. Multiple legs next to each other do not awaken an idea of movement, or only in a very abstract way, just as a human being cannot empathize with a millipede along kinesthetic pathways.” 


Visual images, at least if they’re good, produce mental states—they “awaken an idea” in the viewer. At one point in his essay draft, between X’s, Rorschach inserted without explanation a Russian quotation: 



A picture—The rails on which the viewer’s imagination must roll, according to the artist’s representation. 


xX 


In Switzerland, Rorschach and Gehring had used inkblots to gauge the viewer's imagination, treating it as a measurable quantity. Here was 2 vision of pictures changing the viewer’s imagination—leading it, as of rails, in a new direction. 


Regardless of his specific arguments, a psychiatrist writing about “the psychology of Futurism” in 1915, engaging with avant-garde art in ways entirely consistent with his psychiatric theory and practice, was ahead of his time. Freud would freely admit that he was a philistine about modern art; Jung would write one essay on Joyce and one on Picasso, both superficial and dismissive, and would be widely mocked, never going near the subject again. There were other psychiatrists more attentive to art, and artists who studied psychology, even outside of Russia—the German surrealist Max Ernst, for instance, had extensive university training in psychiatry. But Rorschach was a uniquely knowledgeable figure to straddle the disciplinary divide. 


Beyond Futurism, western European and Russian ideas were coming together in the nineteen-tens to create abstract art. The figures usually credited as the first purely abstract modern artists are the Dutchman Piet Mondrian, the Russian Kazimir Malevich, the Russian émigré in Munich Wassily Kandinsky, and the Swiss Sophie Taeuber. Worringer’s Abstraction and Empathy was a shared point of reference. Rorschach’s Futurism essay just predated the defining even, in the birth of modern art in Switzerland: the creation of Dadaism ing Zurich cabaret in February 1916. Sophie Taeuber took part, along with her future husband Hans (Jean) Arp; at the Zurich School of Arts and Crafts, where Ulrich Rorschach had studied a generation before, Taeuber taught what Arp called “bevies of girls hastening to Zurich fromall the cantons of Switzerland, with the burning desire to neverendingly embroider floral wreaths on cushions,” and “managed to bring most of them to embrace the square.” 


There is no record of any direct contact between Rorschach and the Dadaists, but he certainly followed developments in western European modern art. He had made a cartoon satirizing Expressionism in high school; he would later use the Austrian Expressionist artist Alfred Kubin to illustrate his theories about introversion and extraversion. More generally, he would bring his insights about art and psychology back from Russia to his psychiatric practice in Switzerland. 

&

The normal subject knows as well as the experimenter that the blot can have no claim to be anything but a blot, and that the requested answers can only depend on vague analogies and more or less imaginative ‘interpretations’ of the images.” A Rorschach blot, though, really might be two waiters pouring out pots of soup, with a bowtie in the middle. You can feel answers coming at you from the image. There’s something there. At the other extreme, Justinus Kerner’s klexography is unambiguous. He even added captions. Compared to his blots, Rorschach’s are suggestive—some more so, others less—and richly open to interpretation. They have unclear foreground/background relationships, potentially meaningful white spaces, questionable coherence so that a viewer has to integrate the image into a whole (or not); they can be seen as human or inhuman, animal or nonanimal, skeletal or nonskeletal, or. ganic or inorganic. They have a mystery about them as they strain at the edge of the intelligible. 


While crafting the blots, Rorschach worked to eliminate any sign of craftsmanship and artistry. The blots had to not look “made” at all; their impersonality was crucial to how they worked. In his early drafts, it was still obvious where Rorschach had used a brush, how thick the brush was, and so on, but soon he had shapes that seemed to have made themselves. His images were clearly symmetrical, but too detailed to be mere folded smears. The colors added to the mystery: how did they get into an inkblot? Rorschach’s images increasingly looked unlike anything seen before, in life or art. After “spending a long time using images that were more complicated and structured, more pleasing and aesthetically refined,” he later wrote, “I dropped them” in the interest of producing better, more revealing results. 


It was especially important that they not seem like a puzzle, a test, because Rorschach’s paranoid patients had hair-trigger reactions to any hint of ulterior motives. There couldn’t be names or numbers on an image, since patients would pay too much attention to what they might mean, ignoring the picture itself. The cards couldn’t have a border, because in Switzerland that was likely to remind a schizophrenic of a black-edged death notice. Rorschach knew from Miinsterlingen how to get around patients’ suspicions; a great advantage of the inkblot method, he realized early on, was that it could be “conducted either like a game or like an experiment, without affecting the results. Often, even unresponsive schizophrenics unwilling to undergo any other experiment will willingly perform this task.” It was fun! Rorschach did not originally conceive of the blots as a “test” at all: he called it an experiment, a nonjudgmental and open-ended investigation into people’s ways of seeing. 


The choice to make the blots symmetrical might seem inevitable, but it was one of Rorschach’s crucial decisions or intuitions, with allimportant consequences. Earlier inkblots in psychology didn’t have to be symmetrical: Alfred Binet’s were merely “strange-shaped blots of ink on a white sheet of paper”; only two of Whipple’s fifteen blots were symmetrical, only two of Rybakov’s eight. But Rorschach’s blots were, and he laid out arguments for why: “The symmetry of the images has the disadvantage that people see disproportionately many butterflies etc., but the advantages far outweigh the disadvantages. Symmetry makes the form more pleasing to the eye and thus makes the subject more willing to perform the task. The image is equally suitable for right-handed and left-handed subjects. It also encourages the seeing of whole scenes.” 


Rorschach could have chosen to use vertical symmetry across a horizontal center line, evoking a landscape with horizon or a reflective pool, or even symmetry across a diagonal. Instead he used horizontal or bilateral symmetry. Perhaps he remembered from Haeckel’s Art Forms in Nature that this is what seems organic and natural, or recalled from Vischer’s essay on empathy that “horizontal symmetry always presents a better effect than vertical symmetry because of its analogy with our body.” Whether consciously or intuitively, he worked with the symmetry of everything we care about most: other people, their faces, ourselves. Bilateral symmetry creates images we react to emotionally psychologically. 


Another pivotal choice was to use red. Like any painter, Rorschach knew that red and other warm colors come at the viewer while blue ang cool colors recede: in the inkblots, red would confront the test taker more aggressively than any other color, demanding that we react, oy suppress a reaction. Red appears brighter to the human eye than other colors at the same saturation—the Ielmholtz-Kohlrausch effect; it also looks more saturated than other colors at the same brightness. It interacts with the light/dark dichotomy better than any other color, looking dark in contrast to white, and light in contrast to black. (An. thropologists would discover in 1969 that some languages have only two color terms—for black and white—but that any language with a third term uses red: red is color as such.) Earlier inkblots in psychology had not used color at all, but Rorschach used the color with the most color, just as bilateral symmetry is the most meaningful kind of symmetry. 


Rorschach’s most definitive break with his predecessors was to stop using inkblots to measure the imagination. When Rorschach read on the first page of Hens’s dissertation that seeing things in a formless that “the blot can have no claim to be anything but a blot” without “more or less imaginative inkblot “requires what we call ‘imagination, ‘interpretations’ of the images,” his whole life had prepared him to say: No. A blot is not just a blot, at least not if it’s any good. Pictures have real meaning. The image itself constrains how you see it—as on railsbut without taking away all your freedom: different people see differently, and the differences are revealing. Rorschach had learned that from his friends at the Zurich art museum, from all his efforts to read people as a doctor and as a human being. 


The most obvious problem with measuring a subject’s imagination by counting answers—though it hadn’t been obvious to Hens, or to Alfred Binet and his successors—was that some answers are imaginative and others are not. An answer could be perceptive, seeing something really there in the image; it could be crazy, but that’s not the same as imaginative. Delusions seem real to the person who has them. No one looked at a blot and tried to see something that wasn’t there, Rorschach realized; they tried “to come up with an answer that gets as close to the truth of the picture as they can. This goes for the imaginative person exactly as much as for anyone else.” He found that whether or not he told a subject to “use your imagination” made no difference. A schizophrenic who was originally imaginative “would, of course, produce different, richer, more colorful delusions than a patient who was originally unimaginative,” but when a psychotic took his delusions for reality, this “probably {had} nothing whatsoever to do with the function of imagination.” 


Two responses to his inkblots that Rorschach heard early on proved the point. In what would be Card VIII of the final test (see Color Plate 1), one thirty-six-year-old woman saw “A fairy-tale motif: a treasure in two blue treasure chests buried under the roots of a tree, with a fire underneath, and two mythical animals guarding it.” A man saw “Two bears, and the whole thing is round, so it’s the bear pit in Bern.” 


The imaginative person had integrated the shapes and colors into a complete picture; her answer was playful, spoken with delight. The second answer, in contrast, was what Rorschach called “confabulation”: latching onto part of the image and overriding or disregarding the rest. The man saw the round shape as a bear pit not because bears were inside it—the bear shapes are actually around the edge of the card—but because his thoughts had gotten stuck on bears and everything now had to be about bears. He could no longer see the round shape in context, or connect it to anything else in the picture. (A more recent example of confabulation is seeing Card V {see page 145] as “Barack Obama with George Bush on his back” because “It’s a clash of two forces, and the whole picture may look like an eagle, the eagle being the symbol of the country.” The symbolism of the eagle doesn’t actually mean eagle parts look like presidents.) Rorschach described the tone of a confabulated answer as one not of creative play but of conquering a problem, and its logic is strangely literalistic, despite not really making sense. The woman’s fairy-tale associations were literary and creative, her answer imaginative, but at the same time her perception was much more coherent and clearly grounded in the image than the confabulator’s. 


In short, one more thing found in a blot should not simply count as one more point on a person’s imagination score. What mattered was how people saw what they saw—how they took in visual information, and how they understood it, interpreted it, felt about it. What they could do with it. How it set them dreaming. In his dissertation, Rorschach had concentrated on the mechanics of perception in a relatively narrow physiological sense, exploring crossovers between pathways of seeing or hearing and bodily sensation. But perception included much more, all the way to interpreting what was perceived. Interpretations of chance images are a kind of perception—the italics are Rorschach’s. 

&

As HE WAS designing and creating the inkblots, Rorschach also had to figure out what he was designing his experiment to do. He wanted to study perception in the widest sense, but what did that mean he should ask people? And what should he pay attention to in their answers? 


In keeping with his emphasis on perception over imagination, he asked people not what they found, or imagined, or could see, but what they did see. His question was: “What is this?” or “What might this be?” With images as suggestive as his, there were things that they actu. ally might be. 


People’s answers started to reveal more than Rorschach had thought possible: higher or lower intelligence, character and personal ity, thought disorders and other psychological problems. The inkblots let him distinguish between certain kinds of mental illness that were hard to differentiate in other ways. What had started as an experiment looked to be, in fact, a test. 


He would always insist he had invented the test “empirically,” simply stumbling upon the fact that different kinds of patients, and nonpatients with different kinds of personality, tended to respond in certain ways. Of course he couldn’t discover what a given type of response meant until he had started to notice it as distinctive in the first place. Once he got going, he must have suspected in advance at least some of the cot nections he would go on to find. But his talent was to notice a pattem, then pay attention to it, consider borderline cases, perhaps make new blots to bring out its distinguishing features, then try it all again. 


The full-fledged test came to life in a matter of months. There aré no surviving notes or dated drafts, no letters from Rorschach to anyoné between early 1917 and summer 1918, so it will never be known exactly what the intermediate stages were. In his first surviving letter from 1918, on August 5, Rorschach told a colleague that he'd had “an experiment with ‘klexography’ in hand for a long time now... . Bleuler knows about it.” That same month, he wrote up the experiment, describing the final ten inkblots in their final sequence with the testing process and basic scheme of interpreting results in place. This essay, which he hoped to publish in a journal, was twenty-six typewritten pages long, plus twenty-eight sample test results. Ile would later expand on this framework but would never change it. 


Rorschach had decided that there were four important aspects of people’s responses. First, he noted the total number of answers given in the test as a whole and whether the subject “rejected” any cards, refusing to answer at all. These were rough measures. He found that normal subjects never rejected cards—“At most neurotics blocked by specific complexes will reject one.” The number of answers could imply a basic ability or inability to perform the task, or could suggest mania (lots of answers) or depression (few), but it revealed little about how a person was seeing the cards. 


Second, Rorschach noted down for each response whether it described the whole inkblot or homed in on a part. Calling Card V a bat was a Whole response (W); seeing bears on either side of Card VIII, or a woman raising her arms in the central part of Card I, was a Detail response (D). Seeing something in a tiny detail almost never noticed or interpreted, such as saying that the outermost top corners on Card I were apples, was different: a Small Detail response (Dd). The rare but telling case of interpreting the white space on a card got its own code. Rorschach paid attention to rhythms of W, D, and Dd as the subject’s characteristic approach or “way of grasping things”: whether they tended to move from whole to part, from part to whole, or get stuck in one or the other. 


Third, Rorschach categorized each answer according to what formal property of the image it was based on. Most answers, naturally, were based on shapes: seeing a bat in a blot that’s bat-shaped, a bear in a part of a blot that’s bear-shaped. He called these Form responses (F). 


Other answers were about the color: a blue square seen as a forgetme-not, ared shape as alpenglow. To call a blue area “the sky” would be a color response, even without explicitly saying “the blue sky,” becaus such an answer was based on the color in the blot, not the shape. Such pure Color responses (C), with the shape playing no role at all, were rare among normal test takers. Still more abnormal was to detach color from form altogether, saying about a red patch, “That's red.” More common were Color-Form responses (CF), based primarily on color but taki the shape into account somewhat (a gray blot as “@ rock,” even if the shape was not especially bouldery, or a splash of red as “blood”), or Form-Coloy responses (FC), mainly based on shape but with color playing a second ary role (“a purple spider,” ox “a blue flag” for a blue rectangular shape), 


Answers that described shapes moving in the cards, such as “bear, dancing” instead of just bears, or “two elephants kissing,” or “two wait. ers bowing to each other,” were Movement responses (M). This was the least obvious of Rorschach’s categories—why should it make a differ. ence whether the bears were dancing or not? But Rorschach’s dissertation had been all about the interplay between seeing and feeling the movement in the world. His specialty as an artist was in perceiving and capturing movement, from his hinged shadow-puppets to his sketches of gestures in patient files. In the 1918 version of the test, Rorschach wrote that he usually saw people move or start to move when they gave a Movement response, for instance bending forward slightly as they saw the two waiters bowing. At this stage, he thought of the Movement response as essentially a reflex hallucination. 


Almost every response to an inkblot was based on Form, Color, and/or Movement, although Rorschach did occasionally encounter an abstract answer that was none of the above, such as “I see an evil force.” 


Finally, Rorschach paid attention to the content of the answerswhat people saw in the cards. “Anything you can imagine, of course,” as Rorschach put it, “and, with schizophrenics, quite a lot you can't.’ 


He was as fascinated and delighted as anyone else by the unexpected, creative, sometimes bizarre answers given by both patients and nonpatient test takers. But what he mainly focused on was whether an answer was “Good” or “Poor”—whether it could reasonably be said to describe the actual shape in the blot. He paid attention to what people saw primarily as a way of evaluating bow well they saw. A Form response would be marked as F+ for a well-seen form, Ffor the opposite, F for the unexceptionable. 


And right at the start, in his August 1918 manuscript, this raised a question that would continue to dog the Rorschach: Who decides what's reasonable? “Of course there need to be many tests of normal subjects with various kinds of intelligence, in order to avoid any personal arbitrariness in judging whether an F answer is good or bad. One will then have to classify many answers as objectively good that one would not subjectively call good.” Having just invented the test, Rorschach had no data that would let him objectively distinguish between good and bad—no set of norms. Establishing a quantitative baseline for which answers were common among normal test takers and which were unusual or unique would be one of his first goals, because someone’s percentage of well-seen or badly seen forms (F+% and F—%) was a crucial measure of their cognitive functioning. 


There were only a few content categories that Rorschach found significant in their own right, such as seeing Human figures, Animals, or Anatomy (noted down as H, A, Anat.). It mattered if a person got stuck on a certain kind of answer or had a wide range. In general, though, the content was secondary. Rorschach paid attention mostly to the formal aspects of the blots that produced the response: Detail and Whole; Movement, Color, and Form. 


The written record of a subject’s Rorschach test, known as a “protocol,” listed every answer the person gave and assigned it codes. As answers to Card VIII, for example, “Two polar bears” would be coded as a well-seen Animal Form response about a commonly interpreted Detail, namely the red figures on the side, with the color irrelevant (D F+ A). “The flames of Purgatory and two devils coming out” would be a Movement response about a Detail (DM). “A carpet” would be the Whole as a poorly seen Form, since the blot doesn’t really look like a carpet (WF-). “The resurrection of the colossal coloric red and brownish and blue bead vein tumors,” an answer Rorschach heard from one overexcited forty-year-old schizophrenic patient at Herisau suffering from serious unsystematic delusions, was a Whole Color response (WC), with, needless to say, other issues. 


After coding the answers, Rorschach would calculate a few basic scores, such as how many F's, C’s, and M’s there were, the percentage of poor answers (F%), the percentage of animal answers (A%). That’s it, The test results were these dozen or so letters and numbers. 


In his 1918 essay outlining the test, Rorschach described typical results for dozens of different subvarictics of mental illness, always careful to state when he lacked a sufficient number of cases in Herisau to generalize safely. 1Ic insisted that these typical profiles, while they might seem arbitrary, had emerged in practice. A manic-depressive in a depressive phase, he wrote, will give no Movement responses or Color responses, will see no Human figures, and will tend to start with Smal] Details before moving to the Whole (the reverse of the normal pattern), giving few Whole responses overall. People with schizophrenic depression, on the other hand, will reject more cards, will occasionally give Color answers, will very often give Movement answers, and will see a much smaller percentage of Animals and significantly more poor forms (F—% = 30-40). Why? Rorschach refused to speculate, but pointed out that this differential diagnosis—being able to tell the difference between manic-depressive and schizophrenic depression, “in most cases with certainty”—was a real medical breakthrough. 


Especially with findings of psychosis, the test results could be compelling enough to override what he had before his eyes. W hen someone with no psychotic symptoms produced typically psychotic results, Rorschach dug deeper and often found they had psychotic heredity, had sufferers in the immediate family, or had recently shown symptoms. Sometimes they had been in remission for years. Even if not, he might diagnose latent schizophrenia. Rorschach thought in general that the inkblots revealed quality, not quantity—the kind of psychology a person had, not the degree to which these tendencies were expressed. The test could detect a schizophrenic disposition irrespective of whether symptoms were strong, weak, or even nonexistent. Before long, he was grappling with the ethical issue of how to tell a subject that his or her test showed latent schizophrenia or psychosis—an invisible mental illness, perhaps totally unsuspected. But the payoff was worth it: “Maybe we'll soon reach the point where we can judge whether latent schizophrenia exists or not in every case. Just think how much of the fear of insanity that embitters people’s lives we'll be able to free the world from if that happens!” 


At no point did Rorschach try to use a single response to impose a psychological profile. He found, for example, that certain kinds of answers were given almost exclusively by either schizophrenics or people talented at drawing, but he was not tempted to conclude that drafts. manship must be correlated with, or similar to, the illness. “Naturally? he wrote, answers that seem similar “will be qualitatively very differ. ent” when coming from different kinds of people. 


From the beginning, the inkblot experiment was multidimensional. it called upon, and thus tested, many different abilities and capacities at the same time, This meant, reassuringly, that the test was largely sclf correcting. Rorschach found that if you retested a schizophrenic over time, there would be “very different interpretations of the cards but the F%, the number of Movement, Form, and Color responses W and Dd, and so on, would remain more or less the same—assuming of course that the paticnt’s condition has not significantly changed” With ten cards, and room for multiple answers on each card, an ey. pecially creative or bizarre answer or two was unlikely to change the overall record. One mustachioed ballet-dancing snake on the moon didn’t mean you were crazy. 


The scores worked together to give a picture of the subject’s psychology. A lot of unusual or bizarre answers (F-) might be a sign of high intelligence and great creativity or might imply serious defects and an inability to see what everyone else sees. But the test as a whole could distinguish between the two. The first kind of person would tend to have a high number of Whole responses, Movement responses, and well-seen forms (W, M, F+), the second kind of person a low number of all three. 


Similarly, Whole responses could be a good sign or a bad sign. Rorschach found one “intelligent highly educated man in a good mood” who pulled off a creative integration of every inkblot: a protocol of all well-seen Whole answers (W F+), twelve in total. Card II was “dancing squirrels on a tree stump,” Card VIII “a fantastic chandelier.” That meant something very different from the all-Whole protocol of another test taker, a twenty-five-year-old apathetic disorganized schizophrenic who gave one response per card, most of them F(Butterfly. Butterfly. Carpet. Animal carpet. Same thing. Carpet . ..). 


Such interactions between different kinds of response were why administering the test was not easy. There was never any simple decodef for what a given answer meant. Worse still, Rorschach could offer 00 explanation for why the test worked at all. He had derived his correlations as empirically or instinctively as he had made his inkblots, building on no preexisting theory of what Movement and Color meant, or why to pay attention to them in the first place. His interpretations of any single protocol were holistic and often seemed idiosyncratic. All of this was either the test’s weakness or its strength: what made it subjective and arbitrary, or rich and multifaceted. 

&

His OWN INIMITABLE interpretations, along with the ham-fisted efforts by followers such as Behn-Eschenburg and Roemer, must have made Rorschach wonder if anyone else would be able to use the inkblots properly. At the same time, a major new work by Carl Jung left him no choice but to confront head-on how his own vision could be generalized to a universally applicable test—or not. 

Jung's Psychological Types, published in 1921 a month before Psychodtagnostics, posited two basic human attitudes, introversion and extraversion. Jung added four main psychological functions: judging the world through thinking versus feeling, and perceiving the world through sensation versus intuition. These categories may sound familiar—Jung’s approach would later be popularized as the Myers-Briggs test. Questions of how we judge and perceive the world were also, obviously, central to the inkblot experiment. But the significance of Jung’s Psychological Types for Rorschach ran deeper than that. 


Jung had been writing about introversion and extraversion since 1911, and while Rorschach had adopted and modified the terms for the inkblot test, Jung’s ideas had been changing too. After reading Psychological Types, Rorschach complained that “Jung is now on his fourth verSion of introversion—any time he writes anything, the concept changes again!” In the end, their definitions converged, and Rorschach’s state. ment in Psychodiagnostics that his concept of introversion had “hardly anything in common with Jung’s except the name” was misleading, be. cause it referred only to the versions of Jung’s theory published before 1920, when Rorschach was writing his book. 


Like Rorschach, Jung rejected static pigeonholing and insisted that real people are always a mix of types. Jung described how parts of the self compensated for other parts—consciously introverted or thinking types, for instance, would have an unconscious marked by extraversion or feeling. In long, insightful descriptions of real-world interactions, he showed how people of one type behave in ways that are interpreted or misinterpreted by others through the lens of their own types. Jung's categories were not meant to label behavior but to help understand the complexity of real human situations. 


The bottom line, though, was that people are different. When Jung was asked why he had said there were four types, precisely these four, each in extraverted or introverted form, he said that the schema was the result of many years of personal, psychiatric experience: that’s just the way people are. 


The problem, Jung wrote in the epilogue to Psychological Types, was that any theory of the mind “presupposes a uniform human psychology, just as scientific theories in general presuppose that nature is fundamentally one and the same.” Unfortunately, it’s just not true: there #s no uniform human psychology. After referring to “Liberté, Egalité, Fraternité” and alluding to socialism and the Communist Revolution in Russia—allusions that certainly attracted Rorschach’s notice—Jung raised the decisive objection that equal opportunity for all, equal liberty, equal income, even total justice of every kind would make some people happy and other people unhappy. If I ran the world, should I give Mr. X twice as much money as Mr. Y, since money means so much more to him? Or not, since the principle of equality matters to Mr. Z? What about people who need to put other people down to feel good about themselves—how should their needs be satisfied? Nothing We legislate “will ever be able to overcome the psychological differences between men.” So too in science, and in any difference of opinion: “The Partisans of either side attack each other purely externally, always seeking out the chinks in their opponent's armor. Squabbles of this kind are usually fruitless. It would be of considerably greater value if the dispute were transferred to the psychological realm, from which it arose in the first place. The shift of position would soon show a diversity of psychojogical attitudes, each with its own right to existence.” I'very worldview “depends on a personal psychological premise.” No theorist “realizes that the psychology he sees is 4is psychology, and on top of that is the psychology of his type. He therefore supposes that there can be only one true explanation . . . namely the one that agrees with his type. All other views—I might almost say all seven other views—which, in their way, are just as true as his, are for him mere aberrations” for which he feels “a lively but very understandable distaste.” 


The project of Psychological Types had started with a case of incompatible views: while Freud thought everything was ultimately about sex, and Alfred Adler thought everything was ultimately about power, Jung’s work “sprang originally from my need to define the ways in which my outlook differed from Freud’s and Adler’s. ... In attempting to answer this question, I came across the problem of types; for it is one’s psychological type which from the outset determines and limits a person’s judgment.” In the book, Jung managed a delicate dance around his own limitations. Even as his whole project implied a kind of Olympian insight into all the different types, he again and again admitted his own partiality. He said outright that the desire for a total, overarching theory was a fact of his own psychology; that Freud was as right, in his way, as Jung was in his; that it had taken Jung years to recognize the existence and value of types other than his own; that his discussion of types unlike his own was inadequate. 


As Jung knew perfectly well, seeing through another person’s eyes is all but impossible. “It is a fact constantly and overwhelmingly apparent in my practical work,” he wrote—a fact since confirmed by every comment section on the internet, one might add—“that people are Virtually incapable of understanding and accepting any point of view other than their own. ... Every man is so imprisoned in his type that he is simply incapable of fully understanding another standpoint.” The greatness of Psychological Types results from Jung’s intuitive and analyti~ cal power combined with his decades-long effort to get outside of himself, despite everything. 


Rorschach recognized the fundamental stakes of the book, and it brought him up short the way nothing else had. With his Jungian background, Rorschach was naturally asked to review the work, and in April 1921 he agreed. But the more he studied it, the less sure he wag about how to incorporate its insights. 


Admittedly, the book is a monster, with literally hundreds of pages on Indian Vedas, Swiss epic poetry, medieval Scholasticism, Goethe and Schiller, and whatever else could be shown to express the two poles of human experience. “I am reading Jung with mixed feelings,” Ror. schach wrote in June: “There is a lot that is right, definitely a lot, but embedded in a very queer architecture.” Five months later: 


I am now reading Jung’s Types for the third time and I still can’t bring myself to start the review I am supposed to write... . In any case, I need to significantly rectify my earlier judgment about him. There really is an amazing amount in the book, and... for now I see no way to fault the deductive structure he lays out in contrast to Freud’s thought. . . . ’m gnawing at the book, but as soon as I start to put something together, I become suspicious of my own ideas. 


One of his complaints about isolation in Herisau was that “I really want to have a long conversation with someone about Jung at some point. The book has very many good things, and it is damned hard to say where the speculation goes off track.” In January 1922, he was still struggling: “I have to agree with Jung, who distinguishes conscious and unconscious attitudes and says that when the conscious is extraverted, the unconscious is compensatorily introverted. This terminology is of course hideous, these formulations brutally smashed together, but clearly the idea of compensation is very significant.” If nothing else, Jung had already argued for what Rorschach had thought was his own contrasting position: “Most cases have both introversive and extratensive aspects, every type is actually a mixture of the two.” 


Psychological Types was forcing Rorschach to rethink his ideas—and his own psychology. “I thought at first that Jung’s types were purely speculative constructions,” Rorschach confided to his former patient, Pastor Burri. “But when I finally tried to derive Jungian types from the results of my own experiment, I saw that it was possible. This meant that, in resisting Jung, my own type had actually prejudiced me much more than I thought.” 


In recognizing that his reactions revealed something about himself, Rorschach not only got to the heart of Jung’s theory but also built on his own previous insights. In his dissertation, he had acknowledged that “my account of reflex-hallucinatory processes may seem subjective to some readers, for example auditory types, since it is written by someone who is primarily a motor type, secondarily a visual type.” In his diary, on January 28, 1920: “Again and again we run into the fact that introverts cannot understand how extraverts think and behave, and vice versa. And they don’t even realize that they are dealing with a different kind of person.” Now Jung had brought the problem to a head. If ideas came from a theorist’s personal psychology, then was any universal theory possible? 


Jung had divided the world into eight distinct worldviews, but Rorschach’s framework risked an even more thoroughgoing relativism, shattering a unitary truth into a nearly endless variety of perceptual styles. Until Psychological Types, Rorschach had been able to use his own balance of different qualities to paper over the troubling implications of his inkblot experiment. A brilliant intuitive reader of test protocols, he also tried to put the results on a solid numerical basis. He had written that an examiner too inclined or too disinclined to Movement responses would have a hard time scoring tests properly—but he saw himself as able to strike the right balance. He always refused to call either Movement or Color types better or worse. Jung’s book confronted him with his own partiality, even the partiality of evenhandedness. 


In his dissertation, Rorschach had had to admit that the psychology he described was his psychology; later, he thought that his inkblots had given him access to anyone and everyone’s way of seeing. But truly accepting that everyone was different would make it harder to claim that he could bridge those differences anyway. 


Waite Rorschach was struggling with Jung, and with his neurotic patients, his ideas continued to develop, touching on many of the ways the test would evolve in the century to come. He moved away from Experience Type and the introvert/extravert balance as the main find. ing of the test. He started paying closer attention to the subject’s way of talking, frantic and compulsive or calm and relaxed. He raised ques. tions that would define a century of debates: whether the examiner influenced the results; whether the test found permanent personality traits or reflected the test taker’s situation and passing mood; whether standardization made the test more reliable or merely more rigid; whether responses should be scored in isolation or seen in the context of the whole protocol. “My method is still in its infancy,” he wrote on March 22, 1922. “I am completely convinced that, after enough experience with the main inkblot series, ways forward to other, more specialized inkblots will open up, which will necessarily allow for significantly more differentiated conclusions.” 


His approach remained cautious. Examiners, he wrote, seemed able to influence the content of responses much more than formal aspects of the protocol, “but of course systematic study of this is very necessary.” Even in a holistic approach, obtaining quantifiable data was essential: “A general view of the total findings must be retained to avoid being tripped up by the score for a particular variable, but even after a great deal of experience and practice, I consider it quite impossible to obtain a definite and reliable interpretation without doing the calculations.” As for being free to interpret results at will or tied down to more or less crude formulas, “a dilemma that comes up unfortunately quite often in the test,” Rorschach took the side of scientific objectivity: “All my work has shown me that crude systematization is better than arbitrary interpretation, if the situation is not clear in and of itself.” 


New discoveries continued to surprise him. When the latest volunteer assistant at Herisau started giving the inkblot test to patients at the Deaf-Mute Clinic in St. Gallen, Rorschach expected the deafmutes to have many kinesthetic responses, but “that turned out to be entirely false: they are purely visual Small Detail (Dd) interpreters with almost no M responses!” In retrospect, it was “a finding that is very understandable, however unexpected.” He concluded from this and similar findings that it was far too soon to try to construct a theory to explain the inkblot test: only after much experience with a fuller range of subjects would the right theory “fall into place on its own.”


&

Within barely a dozen years of its arrival in America, the Rorschach was being taught, used, and studied furiously across the country. Scores were being refined and redefined, data collected and analyzed, techniques improved and invented, results analyzed blind and correlated with other tests and every sociocultural factor imaginable. Along with asking what about the test made it so popular, it makes sense to ask what made the country so receptive. America was in another “testhungry time,” as Rorschach had written of Switzerland in 1921, but there was more. Americans increasingly thought of themselves as having something special inside that could not be accessed with any standard tests, and the Rorschach would prove uniquely able to grasp it. 


WHAT YOU DO—IN FACT, EVERYTHING YOU DO—EXPRESSES who you are. Your actions reveal not so much the content of your character as your personality: not conformity to recognized moral virtues, but how you stand out by being unique and special. 


These familiar ideas were the product of a shift in early twentiethcentury America from a culture of character to a culture of personality. “Character,” an ideal of serving a higher moral and social order, was regularly invoked around the turn of the twentieth century alongside citizenship, duty, democracy, work, building, golden deeds, outdoor life, conquest, honor, reputation, morals, manners, integrity, and above all manhood. “Personality,” in contrast, was invoked in the following decades together with words like fascinating, stunning, attractive, magnetic, glowing, masterful, creative, dominant, forceful—not nouns but adjectives, not specific kinds of behavior but hype for making an impact. 


These new terms of praise were amoral: someone’s character was good or bad, but a personality was appealing or unappealing. If anything, bad was better—a thrilling rebel beat an upstanding drip any day. The charm and charisma that compelled people to like you came to be seen as mattering more than integrity or honorable deeds that might earn their respect; poise took precedence over virtue, seeming Sincere over being sincere. Who cared what you were like on the inside if you were too dull to be noticed in the faceless crowd at all? 


The cultural shift from character to personality can be tracked in self-help books, sermons, education, advertising, politics, fictionanything that offered an ideal of how to live. Dr. Orison Swett Marden, the Dr. Phil of his day, ended his 1899 book Character: The Greatest Thing in the World with a quote from US president James Garfield: “I must succeed in making myself a man.” By 1921, when he came to write Masterful Personality, Marden had changed with the times: “Ou success in life depends upon what others think of us.” Movie stars were part of the same shift: studios at first tended to conceal the identities of actors and actresses, but around 1910 the star was born, and his or her personality became the movie’s main selling point. Douglas Fairbanks, the first such movie celebrity, was described this way in 1907; “He’s not good looking. But he has worlds of personality.” Or this slogan from one of cinema’s greatest, Katharine Hepburn: “Show me an actress who isn’t a personality and you'll show me a woman who isn't a star.” The archetype of the jazzy new age wasn’t Gatsby the Good Person, but Gatsby the incomparably Great, and how he made his money mattered infinitely less than his indescribable qualities, his sparkle, his beautiful shirts. 


Since you have some control over how you come across, you can shape your destiny by improving your self-presentation—the classic American promise took on this form in the early twentieth century, echoed endlessly by style magazines and business gurus in the decades since. The downside of endless opportunities to make a masterful impression, of course, was the infinite risk of making a bad one. In a world of constant social monitoring and comparison, the demands of selfmarketing never stopped: absolutely anything might reveal to watchful, judging eyes more about you than you might even know. 


One classic study, Roland Marchand’s Advertising the American Dream, reprints a truly terrifying array of early-twentieth-century ads proclaiming that your bad breath, careless shave, unfortunate clothes, or droopy socks would be noticed, dooming your chances at romance, success, and a decent life. “CRITICAL EYES ARE SIZING YOU UP RIGHT NOw,” intoned the voice of Williams shaving cream. Only because she owned a Dr. West toothbrush could one woman pass “The Smile Test” when she fell off a toboggan and a handsome stranger helped her to her feet. Ads of an earlier generation had tended to actually describe their products rather than offering this combination of promise and threat. 


But even if the new ads exaggerated a little, they reflected social realities. Superficial things “were more significant in a mobile, urban, impersonal society” than in an earlier era of more stable relationships, in Marchand’s words. Especially in love and business, to have a masterful personality meant you had to “be yourself,” but that also meant smiling the right smile and wearing the right sock garters. Without such external markers, you were out of luck. 


Given the high stakes, the glamour and flair of “personality” paradoxically came to be essential: style was substance, how you came across was who you were. “As late as 1915,” in the words of one leading anthropologist, “the very word still carried overtones chiefly of piquancy, unpredictability, intellectual daring: a man’s personality was much like a woman’s ‘it’”—the sex appeal that made her, in the cliché of the time, an “It Girl.” By the 1930s, though, once Freud had come to prominence, Americans had seized upon the idea that some ineffable inner force dominated our lives, and they equated that force with personality. Jung’s “psychological types,” which had described something more like character than style, were reimagined in America as “personality types,” starting with the work of Myers and Briggs in the 1920s. And while the seething energy of the Freudian unconscious was hopelessly chaotic, personality was understood as having a “structure,” something that could be analyzed, categorized, grappled with. If you described that inner force as “personality,” there was more you could say about it. 


This evolving sense of self was what the Rorschach test tapped into, and it in turn redefined the test. A 1939 essay called “Projective Methods for the Study of Personality,” by Lawrence Frank, was nothing less than a new vision of the individual’s place in the world, redefining psychology for the twentieth century and putting the Rorschach, as a test of “personality,” right at the center of it. 


In a 1939 essay, Frank explained personality in the broadest possible terms, as the way we give meaning to life. “The personality process,” he wrote, “might be regarded as a sort of rubber stamp which the individual imposes upon every situation.” The person “necessarily ignores or subordinates many aspects of the situation that for him are irrelevant and meaningless and selectively reacts to those aspects that are personally significant.” We shape our world, which means we are not passive creatures, receiving and responding to stimuli or facts in the outside world. In Frank’s view, there are no facts, no outside world, no external stimuli at all except insofar as a person “selectively constitutes them and responds to them.” It was an idea with shades of Nikolai Kulbin, the Futurist whom Rorschach had heard in Russia: “The self does not know anything except its own feelings, and while projecting these feelings it creates its own world.” 


Such subjectivity posed a problem for the scientist. There was nothing replicable, no control experiments, only the unique interaction that takes place whenever “a person perceives, and imputes to what he perceives, the meaning which he himself projects upon whatever he perceives, then responds in some manner.” Everything a person did was significant, but it needed to be interpreted, not simply tabulated. Standardized tests wouldn’t work. The scientist needed a way to measure how a subject’s personality organized his or her experience. 


Lawrence Frank had a solution, and a new name for it: “projective methods.” To Frank these were not “tests,” though they were sometimes referred to as such. Instead, projective methods presented a person with something open-ended, something that meant “not what the experimenter has arbitrarily decided it should mean (as in most psychological experiments using standardized stimuli in order to be ‘objective’), but rather whatever it must mean to the personality who gives it, or imposes upon it, his private, idiosyncratic meaning and organization.” Subjects would then react in a way that expressed their personality. Rather than giving an “objectively” right or wrong answer, a subject would “project” his or her personality out into the world for the experimenter to see. 

Frank’s ultimate projective method was the Rorschach. 







Tuesday, January 24, 2023

The Beautiful and the Damned

 FSF

‘Shakespeare was a Bilphist,” she assured him through a fixed smile. “Oh, yes! He was a Bilphist, its been proved.” 

At this Dick would look a bit blank. 

“If you’ve read ‘Hamlet’ you can’t help but see.” 

“Well, he—he lived in a more credulous age—a more religious age.” 

But she demanded the whole loaf: 

“Oh, yes, but you see Bilphism isn’t a religion. It’s the science of all religions.” She smiled defiantly at him. This was the bon mot of her belief. There was something in the arrangement of words which grasped her mind so definitely that the statement became superior to any obligation to define itself. It is not unlikely that she would have accepted any idea encased in this radiant formula—which was perhaps not a formula; it was the reductio ad absurdum of all formulas. 

&


Muriel Kane had originated in a rising family of East Orange. She was short rather than small, and hovered audaciously between plumpness and width. Her hair was black and elaborately arranged. This, in conjunction with her handsome, rather bovine eyes, and her over-red lips, combined to make her resemble Theda Bara, the prominent motion picture actress. People told her constantly that she was a “vampire,” and she believed them. She suspected hopefully that they were afraid of her, and she did her utmost under all circumstances to give the impression of danger. An imaginative man could see the red flag that she constantly carried, waving it wildly, beseechingly—and, alas, to little spectacular avail. She was also tremendously timely: she knew the latest songs, all the latest songs—when one of them was played on the phonograph she would rise to her feet and rock her shoulders back anq forth snap her fingers, and if there was no music she might accompany herself by humming. Her conversation was also timely: “I don’t care » would say, “I should worry and lose my figure” She again: “I can’t make my feet behave when I hear the tune. Oh, baby!” Her finger-nails were too long and ornate, polished te a pink and unnatural fever. Her clothes were too tight, too stylish, too vivid, her eyes too roguish, her smi too coy. She was almost pitifully overemphasized from head to foot. 


&

The stark and unexpected miracle of a night fades out with the lingering death of the last stars and the premature birth of the first newsboys. The flame retreats to some remote and platonic fire; the white heat has gone from the iron and the glow from the coal. 

Along the shelves of Anthony’s library, filling a wall amply, crept a chill and insolent pencil of sunlight touching with frigid disapproval Thérése of France and Ann the Superwoman, Jenny of the Orient Ballet and Zuleika the Conjurer—and Hoosier Cora—then down a shelf and into the years, resting pityingly on the over-invoked shades of Helen, Thais, Salome, and Cleopatra. 

&

“I’m sorry.” 

“Oh, don’t say you’re sorry | If you can’t think anything better than that, just keep quiet!”

“I love you.” 

“I don’t care.” 

There was a pause. Anthony was depressed, . At length Gloria murmured: 

“I’m sorry I was mean.” 

“You weren’t. I was the one.” 

Peace was restored—the ensuing moments were go much more sweet and sharp and poignant. They were stars on this stage, each playing to an audience of two: the passion of their pretense created the actuality. Here, finally, was the quintessence of self-expressionyet it was probable that for the most part their love expressed Gloria rather than Anthony. He felt often like a scarcely tolerated guest at a party she was giving. 


Telling Mrs. Gilbert had been an embarrassed matter. She sat stuffed into a small chair and listened with an intense and very blinky sort of concentration. She must have known it—for three weeks Gloria had seen no one else—and she must have noticed that this time there was an authentic difference in her daughter’s attitude. She had been given special deliveries to post; she had heeded, as all mothers seem to heed, the hither end of telephone conversations, disguised but still rather warm—

—Yet she had delicately professed surprise and declared herself immensely pleased; she doubtless was

&

Back in his apartment after the bridal dinner, Anthony snapped out his lights and, feeling impersonal and fragile as a piece of china waiting on a serving table, got into bed. It was a warm night—a sheet was enough for comfort—and through his wide-open windows came sound, evanescent and summery, alive with remote anticipation. He was thinking that the young years behind him, hollow and colorful, had been lived in facile and vacillating cynicism upon the recorded emotions of men long dust. And there was something beyond that; he knew now. There was the union of his soul with Gloria’s, whose radiant fire and freshness was the living material of which the dead beauty of books was made. From the night into his high-walled room there came, persistently, that evanescent and dissclving soundsomething the city was tossing up and calling back again, like a child playing with a ball. In Harlem, the Bronx, Gramercy Park, and along the water-fronts, in jittle parlors or on pebble-strewn, moon-flooded roofs, a thousand lovers were making this sound, crying little fragments of it into the air. All the city was playing with this sound out there in the blue summer dark, throwing it up and calling it back, promising that, in a little while, life would be beautiful as a story, promising happiness—and by that promise giving it. It gave love hope in its own survival. It could do no more. It was then that a new note separated itself jarringly from the soft crying of the night. It was a noise from an areaway within a hundred feet from his rear window, the noise of a woman’s laughter. It began low, incessant and whining—some servant-maid with her fellow, he thought—and then it grew in volume and became hysterical, until it reminded him of a girl he had seen overcome with nervous laughter at a vaudeville performance. ‘Then it sank, receded, only to rise again and include words—a coarse joke, some bit of obscure horseplay he could not distinguish. It would break off for a moment and he would just catch the low rumble of a man’s voice, then begin again—interminably; at first annoying, then strangely terrible. He shivered, and getting up out of bed went to the window. It had reached a high point, tensed and stifled, almost the quality of a scream—then it ceased and left behind it a silence empty and menacing as the greater silence overhead. Anthony stood by the window a moment longer before he returned to his bed. He found himself upset and shaken. Try as he might to strangle his reaction, some animal quality in that unrestrained laughter had grasped at his imagination, and for the first time in four months aroused his old aversion and horror toward all the business of life. The room had grown smothery He wanted to be out in some cool and bitter breeze, miles above the cities, and to live serene and detached back in the corners of his mind. Life was that sound out there, that ghastly reiterated female sound. 

“Oh, my God” he cried, drawing in his breath sharply. Burying his face in the pillows he tried in vain to concentrate upon the details of the next day. 

&


The idyl passed, bearing with it its extortion of youth. Came a day when Gloria found that other men no longer bored her; came a day when Anthony discovered that he could sit again late into the evening, talking with Dick of those tremendous abstractions that had once occupied his world. But, knowing they had had the best of love, they clung to what remained. Love in gered—by way of long conversations at night into those stark hours when the mind thins and sharpens and the borrowings from dreams become the stuff of all life, way of deep and intimate kindnesses they devel toward each other, by way of their laughing at the absurdities and thinking the same things noble and same things sad.


&

  I shall tell you the story of my education" continued Maury, “under these sardonic constellations,” 

“Do! Please!” 

“Shall I, really?” 

They waited expectantly white he directed a ruminative yawn toward the white smiling moon. 

“Well,” he began, “‘as an infant I prayed. I stored up prayers against future wickedness. One year I stored up nineteen hundred ‘Now I lay me’s.’ ” 


“Throw down a cigarette,” murmured some one. 


A small package reached the platform simultaneously with the stentorian command: 

“Silence! I am about to unburden myself of many memorable remarks reserved for the darkness of such earths and the brilliance of such skies.” 


Below, a lighted match was passed from cigarette to cigarette. ‘The voice resumed: 


“I was adept at fooling the deity. I prayed immediately after all crimes until eventually prayer and crime became indistinguishable to me. I believed that because a man cried out ‘My God!’ when a safe fell on him, it proved that belief was rooted deep in the human breast. Then I went to school. For fourteea years half a hundred earnest men pointed to ancient flint-locks and cried to me: ‘There’s the real thing. These new rifles are only shallow, superficial imitations.’ They damned the books I read and the things I thought by calling them immoral; later the fashion changed, and they damned things by calling them ‘clever.’ 


“‘And so I turned, canny for my years, from the pro fessors to the poets, listening—to the lyric tenor of Swinburne and the tenor robusto of Shelley, to Shake speare with his first bass and his fine range, to Tennyson with his second bass and his occasional falsetto, to Milton and Marlow, bassos profundo, I gave ear to Browning chatting, Byron declaiming, and Wordsworth droning. This, at least, did me no harm. I learned a little of beauty—enough to know that it had nothing to do with truth—and I found, moreover, that there was no great literary tradition; there was only the tradition of the eventful death of every literary tradition. ... 


“Then I grew up, and the beauty of succulent illusions fell away from me. The fibre of my mind coarsened and my eyes grew miserably keen. Life rose around my island like a sea, and presently I was swimming. 

“The transition was subtle—the thing had lain in wait for me for some time. It has its insidious, seemingly innocuous trap for every one. With me? NoI didn’t try to seduce the janitor’s wife—nor did I run through the streets unclothed, proclaiming my virility. It is never quite passion that does the businessit is the dress that passion wears. I became bored—that was all. Boredom, which is another name and a frequent disguise for vitality, became the unconscious motive of all my acts. Beauty was behind me, do you understand ?—I was grown.” He paused. “End of school and college period. Opening of Part Two.” 


Three quietly active points of light showed the location of his listeners. Gloria was now half sitting, half lying, in Anthony’s lap. His arm was around her so tightly that she could hear the beating of his heart. Richard Caramel, perched on the apple-barrel, from time to time stirred and gave off a faint grunt. 


“I grew up then, into this land of jazz, and fell immediately into a state of almost audible confusion. Life stood over me like an immoral schoolmistress, editing my ordered thoughts, But, with a mistaken faith in intelligence, I plodded on. I read Smith, who laughed at charity and insisted that the aneer was the highest form of self-expression but Smith himself replaced charity as an obscurer of the light. I read Jones, who neatly disposed of individualism—and_ behold! Jones was still in my way. I did not think—I was a battle-ground for the thoughts of many men; rather was I one of those desirable but impotent countries over which the great powers surge back and forth. 


“I reached maturity under the impression that I was gathering the experience to order my life for happiness. Indeed, I accomplished the not unusual feat of solving each question in my mind long before it presented itself to me in life—and of being beaten and bewildered just the same. 


“But after a few tastes of this latter dish I had had enough. Here! I said, Experience is not worth the getting. It’s not a thing that happens pleasantly to a passive you—it’s a wall that an active you runs up against. So I wrapped myself in what I thought was my invulnerable scepticism and decided that my education was complete. But it was too late. Protect myself as I might by making no new ties with tragic and predestined humanity, I was lost with the rest. I had traded the fight against love for the fight against loneliness, the fight against life for the fight against death.” 


He broke off to give emphasis to his last observation —after a moment he yawned and resumed. 


“I suppose that the beginning of the second phase of my education was a ghastly dissatisfaction at being used in spite of myself for some inscrutable purpose of whose ultimate goal I was unaware—if, indeed, there was an ultimate goal. It was a difficult choice. The schoolmistress seemed to be saying, ‘We’re going to play football and nothing but football. If you don’t want to play football you can’t play at all ? 


‘What was I to do—the playtime was so short! 


““You see, I felt that we were even denied what consolation there might have been in being a figment of a corporate man rising from his knees. Do you think that I leaped at this pessimism, grasped it as a sweetly smug superior thing, no more depressing really than, sav, a gray autumn day before a fire?—I don’t think I did that. I was a great deal too warm for that, and too alive. 


“For it seemed to me that there was no ultimate goal for man. Man was beginning a grotesque and bewildered fight with nature—nature, that by the divine and magnificent accident had brought us to where we could fly in her face. She had invented ways to rid the race of the inferior and thus give the remainder strength to fill her higher—or, let us say, her more amusingthough still unconscious and accidental intentions. And, actuated by the highest gifts of the enlightenment, we were seeking to circumvent her. In this republic I saw the black beginning to mingle with the white—in Europe there was taking place an economic catastrophe to save three or four diseased and wretchedly governed races from the one mastery that might organize them for material prosperity. 


“We produce a Christ who can raise up the leperand presently the breed of the leper is the salt of the earth. If any one can find any lesson in that, let him Stand forth.” 


““There’s only one lesson to be learned from life, anyway interrupted Gloria, not in contradiction but in a sort of melancholy agreement. 


“What’s that ?’”’ demanded Maury sharply. 


‘That there’s no lesson to be learned from life.” 

......

“You're crazy! By your own statement I should have attained some expericnce by trying.” 


“Trying what?” cried Maury fiercely. “Trying to pierce the darkness of political idealism with some wild, despairing urge toward truth? Sitting day after day supine in a rigid chair and infinitely removed from life staring at the tip of a steeple through the trees, trying to separate, definitely and for all time, the knowable from the unknowable? Trying to take a piece of actuality and give it glamour from your own soul to make for that inexpressible quality it possessed in life and lost in transit to paper or canvas? Struggling in a laboratory through weary years for one iota of relative truth in a mass of wheels or a test tube——” 


“Have you?” 

Maury paused, and in his answer, when it came, there was a measure of weariness, a bitter overnote that lingered for a moment in those three minds before it floated up and off like a bubble bound for the moon. 


“Not I,” he said softly. ‘I was born tired—but with the quality of mother wit, the gift of women like Gloria —to that, for all my talking and listening, my waiting in vain for the eternal generality that seems to lie just beyond every argument and every speculation, to that I have added not one jot.” 


In the distance a deep sound that had been audible for some moments identified itself by a plaintive mooing like that of a gigantic cow and by the pearly spot of a headlight apparent half a mile away. It was a steamdriven train this time, rumbling and groaning, and as it tumbled by with a monstrous complaint it sent a shower of sparks and cinders over the platform. “Not one jot!’”? Again Maury’s voice dropped down to them as from a great height. ‘‘What a feeble thing intelligence is, with its short steps, its waverings, its pacings back and forth, its disastrous retreats! Intelligence is a mere instrument of circumstances. There are people who say that intelligence must have built the aniverse——why, intelligence never built a steam engine { Circumstances built a steam engine. Intelligence is little more than a short foot-rule by which we measure the infinite achievements of Circumstances. 


“I could quote you the philosophy of the hour—but, for all we know, fifty years may see a complete reversal of this abnegation that’s absorbing the intellectuals to-day, the triumph of Christ over Anatole France—” He hesitated, and then added: “‘But all I know—the tremendous importance of myself to me, and the necessity of acknowledging that importance to myself—these things the wise and lovely Gloria was born knowing, these things and the painful futility of trying to know anything else. - 


“Well, I started to tell you of my education, didn’t I? But I learned nothing, you see, very little even about myself. And if I had I should die with my lips shut and the guard on my fountain pen—as the wisest men have done since—oh, since the failure of a certain matter—a strange matter, by the way. It concerned some sceptics who thought they were far-sighted, just as you and I. Let me tell you about them by way of an evening prayer before you all drop off to sleep. 


“Once upon a time all the men of mind and genius in the world became of one belief—that is to say, of no belief, But i¢ wearied them to think that within a few years after their death many cults and systems and prognostications would be ascribed to them which they had never meditated nor intended. So they said to one another: “‘Let’s join together and make a great book that will last forever to mock the credulity of man. Let's persuade our more erotic poets to write about the delights of the flesh, and induce some of our robust journalists to contribute stories of famous amours. We'll include all the most preposterous old wives’ tales now current. We'll choose the keenest satirist alive to compileta deity from all the deities worshipped by mankind, a deity who will be more magnificent than any of them, and yet so weakly human that he’ll become a byword foe laughter the world over—and we'll ascribe to him all sorts of jokes and vanities and rages, in which he'll be supposed to indulge for his own diversion, so that the people will read our book and ponder it, and there? be no more nonsense in the world. 


“‘Finally, let us take care that the book possesses all the virtues of style, so that it may last forever as a wit~ ness to our profound scepticism and our universal irony.’ 


‘So the men did, and they died.

“But the book lived always, so beautifully hhadit been written, and so astounding the quality of iimagination with which these men of mind and genius had endowed it. They had neglected to give it a name, but after they were dead it became known as the Bible.” 


Only Maury Noble remained awake, seated upon the station roof, his eyes wide open and fixed with fatigued intensity upon the distant nucleus of morning. He was wondering at the unreality of ideas, at the fading radiance of existence, and at the little absorptions that were creeping avidly into his life, like rats into a ruined house. 

&




Friday, January 13, 2023

The Netanyahus

 There is no waiting for revelation, no waiting for a miracle. By contrast with religion, the discipline seems reliable. History makes no promises or covenants beyond telling how something from back there arrives at here. At us in the present. The front of the room, where the teacher is. But history, I have to tell you the bad news, is not always reliable. And Jews, whose life was the communication of God’s words from generation to generation, and from faith to faith, knew this better than most. This was because they lived under foreign rulers. Their history in Christian lands was a Christian hiscory; their history in Muslim lands was a Muslim history; written by non-Jews under the patronage of despots who insisted on being flattered, or at least who insisted on the centrality of their roles. It was the Jews who first understood the impossibility ofa truth shared by all people. They were the first who understood that all that was possible was a truth shared by the dominant people, the group or subgroup or family in power. Universal truth, if it could exist, could only be found in the Bible, whose claim to divine provenance and authority demanded its accurate preservation. This realization resulted ina firm distinction being made in Jewish culture between preservation and interpretation, which is the psychic adumbration of the trauma that results from a fanaticism of accuracy. Once the Bible had been commended to other faiths, it’s the interpretation that interested the Jews. Interpretation was, in many ways, their only freedom. This interpretative capacity allowed them to remain outside history and dwell in myth, which instructed about morals and ethics and structured the calendar and community life. The Jewish preference for the instructive and aesthetic story over the accurately documented history was a direct outgrowth of the circumstances of Diaspora, in which Jews were exiled and oppressed and denied the right of self-rule. In exile, where non-Jews made the history that Jews had to suffer, could the details matter? Why care about the facts, when you can’t create them? What would be the point of recording the name and coordinates of every city that kicked you out and the exact specific date of your every misery and slaughter? When it came to chronicling Jewish life, what difference could there be between Rome and Greece and Babylon? Weren't they all just ultimately variations on Egyptian bondage, and all of their rulers essentially incarnations of the Pharaoh? Through this process of repeatedly relating the Bible to the present, history was negated; the more these stories were repeated—every weekly recurrence of the Sabbath, every annual recurrence of a holiday—the more the past was brought into the present, until the past and present were essentially collapsed and each next year was rendered identical to the last, with all occurrences made contemporary. This collapsing of time imparted a certain messianic quality both to the daily lives of individual Jews and to the collective spiritual life of the Jewish people. In other words, through interpretation these preservers of God's word were preserved themselves. Take, for instance, Zion, a historical kingdom that in its destruction was transmuted into myth, becoming in the Diaspora a story and poetic trope that reigned supreme in the Jewish imagination for millennia. The world is full of real events, real things, which have been lost in their destruction and are only remembered as having existed in written history. But Zion, because it was remembered not as written history butas interpretable story, was able to exist again in actuality, with the founding of the modern state of Israel. With the establishment of Israel, the  Poetic was returned to the practical. This is the 1st example ever in human civilization in which this happened in which a story became real it became a real country with a real army real essential services real treaties and real trade packs real supply chains and real sewage. Now that Israel exists however the days of The Bible tales are finished and the true history of my people can finally begin and if any Jewish questions still remains to be answered it's whether my people have the ability or appetite to tell the difference.

&

Ferdinand and Isabella .....their own union of 1469, their chief opposition was nobiliary, the princes, grandees, and hidalgos who resisted having to cede their local authority. What resulted was a struggle in which the monarchy attempted to systematically impoverish and disempower the nobility, but because a direct attack on the nobility was inadvisable and tantamount to civil war, the monarchy decided that the best approach would be a sort of proxy: They'd get at the nobles by oppressing the Jews, who managed the nobles’ estates and farmed their taxes. Having decided upon this method, they realized that full subdual of the nobility could only be accomplished by oppressing the Jewish converts to Christianity too, because while so many had changed their religion, they'd retained their familial professions and ties in the realm of international finance. At the same time, the monarchy sought to arouse the intrinsic anti-Semitism of the commoners and parlay it into anti-converso sentiments as well, instigating libels and riots that disrupted civic order and depleted the resources of any nobility that sought to quell them. 


Depriving the nobility of the services of the Jews was easy: the Jews could always just be slaughtered. But depriving the nobility of the services of the conversos was a different matter, because the conversos were, officially, Christians, and any attempt to disenfranchise them and invalidate their conversions would have threatened the integrity of the Church. The Spanish Inquisition was founded to provide a way out of this bind, and a justification for conversooppression. It did so through offering the monarchy a simple redefinition: Judaism had always been defined, and defined itself, primarily as a religion—as a set of tenets, and a set of practices—but the genius of the Spanish Inquisition was to insist it was a race, with the implication that even a convert to Christianity, even a fervent new Christian, was still a Jew at heart, because Judaism inhered in dhe blood. Once these new Christians were racialized back into s Jewish identity, they could once again be oppressed: they could be exorbitantly taxed; they could have their property and assets seized; snd, with the nobility rendered too impotent to protect them, they could be expelled from the country entirely. 


That was Netanyahu’s thesis, in reckless synopsis: that Iberian Jewry was perennially caught between a native host populace that rarely changed and an absentee host rulership that changed consantly with conquests. Whenever tensions arose between these bodies politic, they were taken out on the nobility-enabling Jews, whose oppression restored civic balance. The main requirement of this process was merely that the Jews stayed Jewish, which was why when they began to convert—willingly, for the first time in their history—they were punished and admonished that they could never be other than what they originally were. 

.....The revolutionary influence of this redefinition must be insisted upon—Netanyahu insisted, launching himself into this new mode with a podium-slap. The Spanish Inquisition, he claimed, introduced the idea that a person could not essentially change or be changed, but was in fact defined and determined by corporeal factors, by how many degrees tainted they were from that prelapsarian or just pre-miscegenated state the Spanish called Limpieza de sangre: blood purity. In promulgating this idea, the Spanish Inquisition became the first institution in world history to treat Judaism primarily as a race, as a sanguinary quantum and heritable trait that could not be lost or abrogated; setting the precedent for subsequent genocidal and quasi-genocidal regimes so numerous and notorious, he said, that I don’t have to name them. And then he named them: Nazi Germany, the Soviet Union, and the Arab Ummah, the lattermost of which had expelled nearly all of its Jewish population in only the last decade, sending refugees coursing from Morocco, Tunisia, Algeria, Libya, and Egypt into Israel. 


Thinking about this turn of rhetoric now, I find it poignant, though at the time it struck me as strident. And I knew, somehow I knew, that this new pitch he was making in this new firebrand style was the one he'd perfected in countless “addresses” and “orations” and “public chats” in heartland synagogues and chapels and schools on Jabotinsky’s tent-revival circuit—that the only way out of gentile history was through Zion. 


He banged the dais full-fisted, leaned over it, and with all the gross abstraction of fanaticism spoke of Poland, where he was born and grew up during the first of the century's two great European wars, at a time of fracturing empires. The decline of Austro-Hungary caused, or was caused by, or both—in his frenzy, he seemed to say both—provincialism, parochialism, and a rise in desire for nationstate autonomies. This was always the case with marginal identities in the context of empire: identity on the racial or ethnic or religious or merely linguistic level is what you revert to after the transnational project fails; only after you can no longer conceive of yourself as a citizen of Austro-Hungary, and as having been dignified and elevated by that citizenship, can you begin conceiving of yourself as, say, a Pole, a Czechoslovak, a Romanian, a Bulgarian, or a Zionist Jew. Now, after the second of the century’s wars, with the new European empire being Asiatic-Soviet, the same thing would eventually occur, sooner than anyone thought: socialism, communism, woul fragment back into its tribal constituencies. This was also why an Arab League would never survive, because no people were more clannish than the Arabs, whose basal loyalties weren’t even sectarian but familial. It was the function of empires to furnish a common identity to disparate peoples and whenever they couldn't, they failed. This would even be true with America, where everyone if they're asked who they are answers Irish, or Italian, or preposterously three-quarters Scottish, half-Belgian-Dutch, and at most one-drop Mexican black, anything but American. If the American empire couldn't persuade allegiance to democracy over origin, it would fail. He said that while staring at me, unblinking: It would fail. He might even have been pointing at me: You will. What was true for Europe at the emergence of Zionism will one day be true for America too, once assimilation is revealed as a fraud, or once it’s revealed that the country contains nothing to assimilate to—no core, no connate heart-—not just for the Jews, but for everyone. This, at least, was his implication, the text behind the text of his lecture, which he continued to speak to me with his hooded steppe eyes even after his prepared remarks were finished and he was making his acknowledgments and bowing to the light, deferential, and relieved applause: This is what I chink of America—nothing. This is what I chink of American Jews—nothing. Your democracy, your inclusivity, your exceptionalism—nothing. Your chances for survival—none at all You, Ruben Blum, are out of history; you're over and finished; in only a generation or two the memory of who your people were will be dead, and America won't give your unrecognizable descendants anything real with which to replace the sense of peoplehood it took from them; the boredom of your wife—who’s tearing her program up into little white paper pills she'd like to swallow like Percodan isn’t merely boredom with you or her work or with the insufhciency of options for educated women in this country; it’s more like a sense of having not lived fully in a consequential time; and the craziness of your daughter isn’t just the craziness of an adolescent abducted from the city to the country and put under too much pressure to achieve and succeed; it’s more like a raging resentment that nothing she can find to do in her life holds any meaning for her and every challenge that’s been thrust at her—from what college to choose to what career to have—is small, compared to the challenges that my boys, for example—whom she’s been condemned to babysit —will one day have to deal with, such as how to make a new people in a new land forge a living history. Your life here is rich in possessions but poor in spirit, petty and forgettable, with your frigidaires and color TVs, in front of which you can munch your instant supper, Jaugh at a joke, and choke, realizing that you have traded your birthright away for a bowl of plastic lentils... 


&

He told me about his childhood on the Grand Concourse and first reading the poetry of Moyshe Leib Halpern and Jacob Gilaestein: the fish would come from the market wrapped in newspapers (che Forverts, the Morgen Frerbeit), and he'd unwrap it and sometimes the ink would have run and lines of poems would be imprinted on the side of the fish and he'd try to read them; he'd try to read the fish and guess the author, from backwards Yiddish impressed onto wee iridescent scales. He told me about first reading the New Testament in Yiddish in a free copy brought to his door by intrepid missionaries (“I remember Jesus was Yeshua, but all the shlikhim [apostles] called him rebbe [rabbi]”); and about his earliest encounters with the Romantics (“The name, the epithet, continues to attract me”). There were stories about writers he’d known; about Bernard Malamud, who used to clean Harold out in poker; about Saul Bellow, who preferred Allan Bloom to Harold and had a kleptomaniacal streak when it came to bowties; and about Philip Roth, who created the protagonist of Sabbath’s Theater by asking himself, “what if Harold, instead of making his parents proud and going to the Ivy League, had gone to seed in the Village in the ’50s?”—this by Roth's own admission, apparently. Harold told me about fighting a bat infestation in a summer cottage he'd shared with John Hollander; a car crash he'd gotten into with Paul de Man; skinnydipping with Jacques Derrida (“he was quite fit”); croquet with Delmore Schwartz (“quite crazy and inviting of parody but never a self-parody”); and tippling with Dwight MacDonald (“a sincere Trotskyite—though one can't imagine an insincere Trotskyite—who was never sober”). There were anecdotes about T. S. Eliot (“it was unfortunate, his rejection of Milton”); Northrop Frye (“the rare colleague of mine who did not believe that Eliot was Christ’s terrestrial vicar”); Susan Sontag; Camille Paglia; Toni Morrison; and Cynthia Ozick; and disquisitions on anti-Semitism at Cornell, where he was educated, and at Yale, where he was the first Jew ever tenured by the English Department. What else? Arguments with Anthony Burgess over limbo and purgatory (“as a lapsed Catholic, Burgess was going to hell, whereas I am still here and going nowhere”); chess with Nabokov (“it astonished no one that I did not emerge the winner”); and conversations with Don DeLillo (“I conversed, he didn’t”), Cormac McCarthy (“he would call me on the telephone while soaking like a cowboy in the bath”), W. G. Sebald (“gentle, maybe too gentle”), and Gershom Scholem, “who when I'd visit him in Jerusalem at his apartment on Abravanel Street would invariably speak of himself in the third person...so a typical English sentence would be, “The judgment of so-and-so on this-and-that is such-and-such, but Scholem says’...a habit he shares with our current president, who likes to say, ‘Nobody has done more for Israel than Donald Trump’... In literature, referring to yourself in the third person is called illeism.’ On my bachelorhood: “I urge you, dear Joshua, to reconsider”; on bachelorhood in general: “on the whole, dear Joshua, the literature on the subject does not recommend it”; on the homosexuality of Jewishness; on the Jewishness of homosexuality; on the intelligence of former students employed by The New Yorker, and on the incongruity of that intelligence with the mediocrity of The New Yorker; on John Ashbery: “I shall use my anger to build a bridge like that / Of Avignon’; on Hart Crane: “Migrations that must needs void memory, / Inventions that cobblestone the heart.” What else? Feuds over identity politics (which he called “resentment politics,” and of which he said, 









Saturday, January 07, 2023

The Fugitive

I was not in fact entirely mistaken; the specific for curing an unfortunate event (and three events out of four are unfortunate) is a decision; for it has the effect, by a sudden reversal of our thoughts, of interrupting the flow of those that come from the past event and prolong its vibration, and breaking it with a counter-flow of thoughts from the outside, from the future. But these new thoughts are most of all beneficial to us.

&

My jealous curiosity as to what Albertine might have done was unbounded. I suborned any number of women from whom I learned nothing. If this curiosity was so tenacious, it was because people do not die for us immediately, but remain bathed in a sort of aura of life which bears no relation to true immortality but through which they continue to occupy our thoughts in the same way as when they were alive. It is as though they were travelling abroad. This is a thoroughly pagan survival. Conversely, when we have ceased to love, the curiosity which people arouse dies before they themselves are dead. Thus I would no longer have taken a single step to find out with whom Gilberte had been strolling on a certain evening in the Champs-Elysées. Now, I was well aware that these two forms of curiosity were absolutely identical, had no value in themselves, were incapable of lasting. But I continued to sacrifice everything to the cruel satisfaction of this transient curiosity, although I knew in advance that my enforced separation from Albertine, by the fact of her death, would lead me to the same indifference as had resulted from my voluntary separation from Gilberte. 

&

 Some moments after the shock, my intelligence, which like the sound of thunder travels less rapidly, produced the reason for it. Charmont had made me think of the Buttes-Chaumont, where Mme Bontemps had told me that Andrée used often to go with Albertine, whereas Albertine had told me that she had never seen the Buttes-Chaumont. After a certain age our memories are so intertwined with one another that what we are thinking of, the book we are reading, scarcely matters any more. We have put something of ourselves everywhere, everything is fertile, everything is dangerous, and we can make discoveries no less precious than in Pascal’s Pensées in an advertisement for soap. 

&

 But even the importance which this desire must have for her and the reserve with which she surrounded it could not reveal to me what it was qualitatively, still less how she referred to it when she spoke of it to herself. In physical suffering, at least we do not have to choose our pain ourselves. The malady determines it and imposes it on us. But in jealousy we have, so to speak, to try out sufferings of every shape and size, before we arrive at the one which seems to fit. And how much more difficult this is in the case of a suffering such as that of feeling that she whom we loved is finding pleasure with beings who are different from us, who give her sensations which we are not capable of giving her, or who at least by their configuration, their aspect, their ways, represent to her something quite different from us! Ah, if only Albertine had fallen in love with Saint-Loup, how much less, it seemed to me, I should have suffered! 


It is true that we are unaware of the particular sensibility of each of our fellow-creatures, but as a rule we do not even know that we are unaware of it, for this sensibility of other people is a matter of indifference to us. So far as Albertine was concerned, my misery or happiness would have depended upon the nature of this sensibility; I was well aware that it was unknown to me, and the fact that it was unknown to me was painful in itself. 

&

...life, had been subjected merely to the play of my memories, to the actions and reactions of a psychology applicable to immobile states, and had not been drawn into a vaster system in which souls move in time as bodies move m space. 


As there is a geometry in space, so there is a psychology in time, in which the calculations of a plane psychology would no longer be accurate because we should not be taking account of Time and one of the forms that it assumes, forgetting—forgetting, the force of which I was beginning to feel and which is so powerful an instrument of adaptation to reality because it gradually destroys in us the surviving past which is in perpetual contradiction with it. And I really ought to have discovered sooner that one day I should no longer be in love with Albertine. When I had realised, from the difference that existed between what the importance of her person and of her actions was to me and what it was to other people, that my love was not so much a love for her as a love in myself, I might have drawn various conclusions from this subjective nature of my love and in particular deduced that, being a mental state, it might survive the person for some time, but also that, having no real connexion with that person, having no support outside itself, it must, like every mental state, even the most lasting, find itself one day obsolete, be “replaced,” and that when that day came everything that seemed to attach me so sweetly, indissolubly, to the memory of Albertine would no longer exist for me. It is the tragedy of other people that they are merely showcases for the very perishable collections of one’s own mind. For this very reason one bases upon them projects which have all the fervour of thought; but thought languishes ang memory decays: the day would come when I would readily admit the first comer to Albertine’s room, as I had without the slightest regret given Albertine the agate marble or other gifts that I had received from Gilberte. 

&

....the course of conversation, words to which one cannot even give one’s whole attention because one isn’t alone!” Besides, it took me at a serious disadvantage, as I had exhausted myself with Andrée. Really, I would have liked to have more strength to devote to a truth of such magnitude; it remained extraneous to me, but this was because I had not yet found a place for it in my heart. We would like the truth to be revealed to us by novel signs, not by a sentence, a sentence similar to those which we have constantly repeated to ourselves. The habit of thinking prevents us at times from experiencing reality, immunises us against it, makes it seem no more than another thought. There is no idea that does not carry in itself its possible refutation, no word that does not imply its opposite. 


In any case, if it was true, it was by this time the sort of useless truth about the life of a dead mistress that rises up from the depths and reveals itself when we can no longer have any use for it. Then, thinking doubtless of Albertine did not rise again for me with the resurrection of her body. And when I realised that I felt no joy at the thought of her being alive, that I no longer loved her, I ought to have been more shattered than a man who, looking at his reflexion in a mirror, after months of travel or sickness, discovers that he has white hair and a different face, that of a middle-aged or an old man. This is shattering because its message is: “the man that I was, the fairhaired young man, no longer exists, I am another person.” And yet, was not the impression that I now felt the proof of as profound a change, as total a death of my former self and of the no less complete substitution of a new self that former self, as the sight of a wrinkled face topped with a white wig instead of the face of long ago? But one is no more distressed at having become another person, after a lapse of years and in the natural sequence of time, than one is at any given moment by the fact of being, one after another, the incompatible persons, malicious, sensitive, refined, caddish, disinterested, ambitious which one can be, in turn, every day of one’s life. And the reason why one is not distressed is the same, namely that the self which has been eclipsed—momentarily in this latter case and when it is a question of character, permanently in the former case and when the passions are involved—is not there to deplore the other, the other which is for the moment, or from then onwards, one’s whole self; the caddish self laughs at his caddishness because one is the cad, and the forgetful self does not grieve about his forgetfulness precisely because he has forgotten. 

I should have been incapable of resuscitating Albertine because I was incapable of resuscitating myself, of resuscitating the self of those days. Life, in accordance with its habit which is, by unceasing, infinitesimal labours, to change the face of the world, had not said to me on the morrow of Albertine’s death: “Become another person,” but, by changes too imperceptible for me to be conscious even that I was changing, had altered almost everything in me, with the result that my mind was already accustomed to its new master—my new self—when it became aware that it had changed; it was to this new master that it was attached. My feeling for Albertine, my jealousy, stemmed, as we have seen, from the irradiation, by the association of ideas, of certain pleasant or painful impressions, the memory of Mlle Vinteuil at Montjouvain, the precious good-night kisses that Albertine used to give me on the neck. But in proportion as these impressions had grown fainter, the vast field of impressions which they coloured with a hue that was agonising or soothing reverted to neutral tones. As soon as oblivion had taken hold of certain dominant points of suffering and pleasure, the resistance offered by my love was overcome, I no longer loved Albertine. I tried to recall her image to my mind. I had been right in my presentiment when, a couple of days after Albertine’s flight, I was appalled by the discovery that I had been able to live for forty-eight hours without her. It had been the same as when I wrote to Gilberte long ago saying to myself: “If this goes on for a year or two, I shall no longer love her.” And if, when Swann asked me to come and see Gilberte again, this had seemed to me as embarrassing as greeting a dead woman, in Albertine’s case death—or what I had supposed to be death—had achieved the same result as a prolonged breach in Gilberte’s. Death merely acts in the same way as absence. The monster at whose apparition my love had trembled, oblivion, had indeed, as I had feared, ended by devouring that love. Not only did the news that she was alive fail to revive my love, not only did it enable me to realise how far I had already proceeded along the road towards indifference, it at once and so abruptly accelerated that process that I wondered retrospectively whether the opposite report, that of Albertine’s death, had not, conversely, by completing the effect of her departure, rekindled my love and delayed its decline. Yes, now that the knowledge that she was alive and the possibility of our reunion made her suddenly cease to be so precious to me, I wondered whether Francoise’s insinuations, our rupture itself, and even her death (imaginary, but believed to be real) had not prolonged my love, to such an extent do the efforts of third persons, and even those of fate, to separate us from a woman succeed only in attaching us to her. Now it was the contrary process that had occurred. Anyhow, I tried to recall her image and perhaps because I had only to raise a finger for her to be mine once more, the memory that came to me was that of a somewhat stout and mannishlooking girl from whose faded features protruded already, like a sprouting seed, the profile of Mme Bontemps. 


...what I had anticipated on the basis of my love for Gilberte, after obliging me to make so long and painful a detour, had ended too, after having proved an exception to it, by succumbing, like my love for Gilberte, to the general law of oblivion. But then I thought to myself: I used to value Albertine more than myself; I no longer value her now because for a certain time past I have ceased to see her. My desire not to be parted from myself by death, to rise again after my death—that desire was not like the desire never to be parted from Albertine; it still persisted. Was this due to the fact that I valued myself more highly than her, that when I loved her I loved myself more? No, it was because, having ceased to see her, I had ceased to love her, whereas I had not ceased to love myself because my everyday links with myself had not been severed like those with Albertine. But if my links with my body, with myself, were severed also . . . ? Obviously, it would be the same. Our love of life is only an old liaison of which we do not know how to rid ourselves. Its strength lies in its permanence. But death which severs it will cure us of the desire for immortality. 

&

The next day, I set out in quest of my beautiful nocturnal piazza, following calle after calle which were exactly like one another and refused to give me the anallese piece of information, except such as would lead me fusther astray. Sometimes a vague landmark which I seemed to recognise led me to suppose that I was about to see appear, in its seclusion, solitude and silence, the beautiful exiled piazza. At that moment, some evil genie which had assumed the form of a new calle made me unwittingly retrace my steps, and I found myself suddenly brought back to the Grand Canal. And as there is no great difference between the memory of a dream and the memory of a reality, I finally wondered whether it was not during my sleep that there had occurred, in a dark patch of Venetian crystallisation, that strange mirage which offered a vast piazza  Surrounded by romantic palaces to the meditative eye of the moon.